im done

i feel like a slushie
werid way to put it
but the past week
has been a complete
nightmare.
you know when you drink a slushie
and all the icing is at the very top when you take the first sip
that was me.
and now im like this melty sweet water
sinked at the bottom
i thought the ffriday football game was going to be
jublant
exciting
i get to see the boy i liked.
and i ended up hurt and sad
and i know i should be over it
its been
five monthes
and im not.im hurt just like the day
when everything ended
he hurts me over and over again
but i still care
i cant yell at him
i cant be mad at him
his smile makes me smile
hes not the hottest
not the most athletic
but hes the best at making me happy
and i wish that i could be that happy again
...impossible